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January 19th, 2014

10:35 pm: I. Am. Done!!!!!!!!!
Still sinking in.... but I am now officially a college graduate (again :P). Have an associates degree that I got about 7 or 8 years ago. But according to the email I just got earlier this week, I am officially a University Graduate!!! And holy crap does it feel weird. It still hasn't fully sunk in, don't have the official diploma yet, but once the first day of classes rolled around and I didn't have to go to class, it started sinking in that I'm done... I don't have to go... I don't have to do this anymore... Holy crap I'm scared to death.
No... literally.... I'm freaking out here. I'm excited, but I'm also still working at the same dead end job I was at before going to uni, I don't know what to do with all this extra free time I've got, I haven't applied for any new jobs or grad school... I'm excited but I feel like I'm drowning in fear and uncertainty. Definitely time to figure something out. GAAAH!!!!!!

On a slightly more hilarious note though, had another weird kid moment. Was changing diapers in our potty training classroom (the kids are 2.5-3ish), and was in the process of helping one of the little ones switch from the diaper he'd come to school in into a pair of underwear. I made a reference to him putting on his "big boy underwear". He then asked me what I was wearing, and I told him that I'm wearing big girl underwear. He then bends over, looks up the skirt I'm wearing, pokes me in the crotch, and asks, innocently, "dose ones?" I was laughing so hard, I couldn't even talk for a couple minutes to tell his teacher, who'd heard part of the conversation, what he'd said. Next day, I'm doing diapers in his class again, and he asks me if I'm wearing big girl underwear. Thankfully without trying to check this time though.

Current Location: home... where else?
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Current Music: the sound of my heater
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December 8th, 2013

07:39 pm: So close... and yet so far... gah!!!!
Tomorrow is the start of finals week... of my last term at university... I am so close to being done I can taste it! Unfortunately, we've had a freak snow storm (it's Oregon... it never snows here!) and it's snowed enough - around 8 inches - that the College actually closed early and is closed again tomorrow. They never close! And what is even more annoying is that my one and only on-campus final was scheduled for tomorrow night.. which means that I now don't know when I'll be done... and I just wanna finish and get outta here... wah :'( ... ok.. done whining :)
But really? I swear karma is out to get me this term... first the university is cancelling or rescheduling my classes, and now the weather is getting in the way of me finishing... Darn you universe!

Current Location: snowed in at home
Current Mood: exasperated
Current Music: Laibach
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November 4th, 2013

10:42 pm: Blergh... I just wanna curl up and not see anyone now
Darnit... missed October somewhere there... been to fucking busy... school started (yuck... but it's my last term at university, so I can see the light at the end of the tunnel), moved my best friends into the apartment next to mine (all the upsides of roomies without the suckiness), lost my Grandpa to prostate cancer and kidney disease in late September, fell in love, and have been dealing with one of my besties undiagnosed bipolar issues (which she is thankfully working on)... so in short, life has been really fucking bizarre lately. I'm starting to feel mildly bipolar myself, one minute life's great and amazing and I'm loving everything, then the shit hit's the fan again and I'm left crying alone again. I still don't know how I feel about everything, and I'm really hoping things stabilize soon, because I'm not sure how much longer I can go on like this before I start crumbling.

Current Location: Home, alone, again
Current Mood: sad, scared, and sleepy
Current Music: Jamie Foxx
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September 12th, 2013

09:36 pm: Life just sucks
Feeling emotionally drained right now. This has been yet another long emotionally draining week on top of way too many already. I've been taking summer classes at university all summer, with only one week break between spring term and summer term... and summer term just ended last week... and fall term starts in two weeks, so feeling majorly burnt out about school right now. On top of it, my grandpa is dying of cancer, and he's going downhill really fast right now. Went and saw him earlier this evening, and that just sucked. And to add to it, I've been in a relationship all summer that's on the fritz right now, which sucks, but I'm ok with because right now we are better as friends than lovers, and I'm still going to keep them as a friend. And on top of that, best friends, who's wedding I was in earlier this summer, have been having issues, and one of them has been depressed and suicidal lately. So, ummm, yeah, feeling majorly emotionally drained right now, and kinda really want someone to just give me a hug and tell me it's all going to be ok. I'm kinda getting tired of always being the strong one, and I'm not sure how much longer I can hold up before I break into pieces.

Current Location: home
Current Mood: emotional
Current Music: CSI NY on tv

August 27th, 2013

08:30 pm: Blergh......
Wow... Is it really only tuesday? This has been one hellaciously long week already... geez....between personal issues, drama, work, homework, and summer classes, it feels like it should be friday already.
On a side note, what is it about relationships that make them so hard? Between personalities and misunderstandings it's amazing any last.
Sorry... I'm just griping, and venting... Not sure if I should explain tho... It's still too close and personal... Suffice it to say, it involves romance, love, and misunderstandings. But it's worth it to keep going, and this relationship is too important to me for a bump in the road to ruin it. Now I just have to get that across, and hope I can mend the necessary fences.

Current Location: Home
Current Mood: Stressed
Current Music: CSI NY on tv
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July 27th, 2013

02:40 pm: Summer vacation my ass
Wow... between work, classes, graduations, birthdays, festivals, and shenanigans with friends, I am officially busier now than I was during school! I need a vacation!!!

June 13th, 2013

11:15 pm: Gack....
So, not only do I have random drunk homeless guys telling me I'm going to get preggers and have a boy eventually, and kids from work thinking I'm pregnant, the kids are now attempting to pawn me off on their (married) dads.
The other night a group of parents from my preschool's kindergarten class put on a barbeque for the teachers as a thank you/end of the year bit of funness. And it was a blast, there was around a hundred people there between the kidlets and their families, and the teachers and their families. But as I'm sitting at a picnic table eating, one of the kids sitting next to me, who by the way is in elementary school now, starts asking me if I have any kids, which leads into asking if I'm married, which leads to do I have a boyfriend? Since my answers to all of these are no, her precious reply "well, my daddy can be your boyfriend". Never mind that her parents, who are married, are sitting right on the other side of her. Apparently I am now so incredibly single that I am being pimped out to married guys. Geez.
I swear, the universe must be telling me something.... either I need to get a boyfriend, or I need to get preggers or something.... Honestly though, I'm in school, I'm single, and I teach preschool... I don't wanna have kids yet. I'll take the boyfriend tho... Or a girlfriend... I'm not picky... I just wanna stop having weird pregnancy conversations with people....
On a less bizzare note... Just finished another term at the local University, and will be finished there forever come December!!!! Totally excited!

Current Mood: weirded out
Current Music: Nickleback
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May 10th, 2013

06:55 pm: wow... kids are weird
And damned if they don't continuously say bizarre things...
Last week, on the playground, me and one of my coworkers (and best friends) were chatting, when a kindergartener noticed T's (my friend) engagement ring and asked about it. When the kid (V) found out that T isn't married yet, but is marrying her girlfriend soon, V looks up at us, and asks T in a voice filled with wonder: "Are you going to be gay?" About 3 minutes later, V then proceeds to ask me if I have a baby in my belly... when I tell her that I don't, her response is "Oh, 'cuz you kinda look like it" ... Gee thanks kid...
Apparently though, not only do I look like I'm pregnant, I'm Old and Fat.... today a trio of kindergarteners were sitting and coloring, one of them proclaimed that she was drawing an "old fat lady", when I asked incredulously asked her if she even knew any old fat ladies, one of the other girls proclaims :"You!" and the artist and the third girl name two other teachers. Me? A little chubby around the middle, but not fat by any means, or old, and the other two teachers are a couple of the bigger teachers in the building, but none of us are old by any means.... Damn kids....

Current Mood: Amused
Current Music: Enrique Iglesias
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April 20th, 2013

10:07 pm: Gotta love the homeless....
I volunteer at the local public library on saturdays, and our library is located near the main city bus terminal, and a soup kitchen, which means we get some very *interesting* patrons occasionally. Today we had an encounter with a slightly entertaining and rather drunk homeless man. One of the other patrons came up to the main desk and mentioned that he'd seen a guy drinking on a bottle of wine. LJ, the librarian, went to where the guy was sitting, confiscated a half empty bottle of wine, plus another full bottle, then went and talked to the guy to tell him he couldn't have food and drink in the library. She was very polite about it, telling him he could move his food to a different location just inside the front door, and he was very nice about it and not at all belligerent. If anything he seemed talkative and unsure of the rules. They then proceeded to have a conversation about how he could get a library card as a homeless person and various other things. After LJ went back to her desk, the homeless guy started packing up his stuff, and struck up a conversation with me as he did. During this conversation he told me that when I get into a "relational situation" and get pregnant, I am going have a boy, because he "knows things". Never mind that I'm single and have no plans to have kids anytime soon.
On the upside, this guy was better than the homeless guy who sat in a chair and cursed at every single patron going buy... that was just awkward.... no one wants to hear someone telling a kid "fuck you bitch"... that guy got a cop escort out of the building.
Most of the homeless guys in the library are fine tho, they'll come in, charge their phones, and maybe take a nap or use the library.

Current Location: home
Current Mood: Amused
Current Music: Hawaii 5-oh on tv
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March 16th, 2013

12:01 am: book meme from tumblr
Stole this from thilia


1. Favorite childhood book?
Can't really pick just one.... loved the Hardy Boys, Nancy Drew, Trixie Belden, and Baby-Sitters Club books at various points.

2. What are you reading right now?
I, Q trilogy by Roland Smith

3. What books do you have on request at the library?
A ton... a few dvds, cds, JK Rowling's new book, Prodigy by Marie Lu, The Elite by Keira Cass, The Mark Of Athena by Rick Riordan.

4. Bad book habit?
Starting something from the library, and not finishing it before it's due.

5. What do you currently have checked out at the library?
Too many cookbooks, some movies and cds, I,Q: Kitty Hawk, City of Ashes, The Hourglass Door... a few others. I *may* be a bit of a library junkie :)

6. Do you have an e-reader?
Kinda.... I have a smart phone, and I use Aldiko reader to read fanfics

7. Do you prefer to read one book at a time, or several at once?
Don't have much of a preference, but tend to end up reading several at once.

8. Have your reading habits changed since starting a blog?
maybe.... I read more fanfiction

9. Least favourite book you read this year (so far)?
my stupid freaking geology textbook.... the downsides of being a college student

10. Favorite book you've read this year?
Hard to choose, would have to say anything that doesn't involve textbooks.

11. How often do you read out of your comfort zone?
umm.... every time I read a textbook. Otherwise, if a book is interesting I have no problem reading it.

12. What is your reading comfort zone?
Anything and everything that can catch and keep my interest. Due tend to read a lot of YA fiction, biographies, and cookbooks. Been on a dystopian future genre kick lately.... Basically anything similar to the Hunger Games.

13. Can you read on the bus?
Yep. As long as there is sufficient light, I can read anywhere

14. Favorite place to read?
In bed, 'cuz it's cozy

15. What is your policy on book lending?
If I can trust the person to give it back, then sure. I have a couple friends who I know have a whole pile of my books

16. Do you ever dog-ear books?
Used to, not so much anymore. Now I just use scraps of paper and postits

17. Do you ever write in the margins of your books?
Nope. The idea of doing it makes me cringe.

18. Not even with text books?
Not even then.

19. What is your favourite language to read in?
English, it's the only language I'm fluent in.

20. What makes you love a book?
Good characters, good plot, engaging.

21. What will inspire you to recommend a book?
If I think someone will like, then I'll recommend it.

22. Favorite genre?
YA, Dystopian Future.... Think Hunger Games. YA Fantasy, Superhero comics.

23. Genre you rarely read (but wish you did)?
Don't really have any.

24. Favourite biography?
Kaffir Boy, by Mark Mathabane. Read it for high school english, and loved it.

25. Have you ever read a self-help book?
yeah... one or two.

26. Favourite cookbook?
Either Super Natural Cooking or Deceptively Delicious

27. Most inspirational book you've read this year (fiction or non-fiction)?
Haven't really read anything very inspirational yet.

28. Favorite reading snack?
Anything

29. Name a case in which hype ruined your reading experience.
Twilight... but not sure if that was the hype or the book ruining the experience. That was the single most horrible book I've ever read, without being forced to for school.

30. How often do you agree with critics about a book?
No clue, don't ever pay attention to the critics.

31. How do you feel about giving bad/negative reviews?
I have absolutely no problem with it. If I don't like a book, I'll say so.

32. If you could read in a foreign language, which language would you chose?
Probably Spanish, it's the other language I'm the most fluent in so far. I'd love to be able to read Arabic tho.

33. Most intimidating book you've ever read?
Game of Thrones

34. Most intimidating book you're too nervous to begin?
Don't have any.

35. Favorite Poet?
T.S. Eliot and Dr Seuss

36. How many books do you usually have checked out of the library at any given time?
Generally 30+

37. How often have you returned books to the library unread?
More than I'd care to admit.

38. Favorite fictional character?
Way too many to list. Any of the Weasley Boys, Alanna the Lioness, Keladry of Mindelan, Daine the Wildmage, Neville Longbottom, Ron Weasley.

39. Favourite fictional villain?
Severus Snape

40. Books I'm most likely to bring on vacation?
Whatever I'm reading at the moment, or anything by Tamora Pierce.... I think she's officially my most read vacation reading.

41. The longest I've gone without reading.
Few weeks... depends on how busy I am with school. And even then I'm usually busy reading textbooks.

42. Name a book that you could/would not finish.
Game of Thrones, ran out of time before it was due at the library. The Fellowship of the Ring, tried to start it, and just couldn't get into it.

43. What distracts you easily when you're reading?
People

44. Favorite film adaptation of a novel?
The Spiderwick Chronicles, one of the better film adaptation's I think I've ever seen.

45. Most disappointing film adaptation?
Eragon. Didn't read the book until after I'd seen the movie, but holy crap the movie version sucked.

46. The most money I've ever spent in the bookstore at one time?
$400. Textbooks are evil and must die. Not to mention, they're the biggest freaking ripoff ever.

47. How often do you skim a book before reading it?
Not very often. Occasionally I'll read the last page.

48. What would cause you to stop reading a book half-way through?
Boredom or needing to return it to the library.

49. Do you like to keep your books organized?
Yep.

50. Do you prefer to keep books or give them away once you've read them?
If I own them, I keep them. Most I just return to the library when I'm done with them.

51. Are there any books you've been avoiding?
Not really.... 50 Shades Of Grey maybe.

52. Name a book that made you angry.
As an anthropology student, some of the subject matter I've had to read has been touchy, and made me a bit mad. 1984 and Lord Of The Flies pissed me off, but that's because they're horrible and I was forced to read them for school.

53. A book you didn't expect to like but did?
Harry Potter and the Sorcerers Stone, the first time I read it. Didn't believe it could be worth the hype. Read it, and been a Potter junkie ever since.

54. A book that you expected to like but didn't?
The Fellowship of the Ring. Liked the movie, couldn't get into the book.

55. Favorite guilt-free, pleasure reading?
Fanfiction

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